i'm starting to actually realize that in 10 days, i will no longer work at the brew. in 16 days, i will no longer live in indiana. in 19 days, i will be starting my new job in minneapolis. i've been realizing rather quickly that in these last 16 days, i need to do whatever it is that makes me feel truly at peace with moving away. so i'm writing letters to friends with whom i've never really shared everything. i'm planning discussions to replace past hurt with new bridges. i'm trying. trying to form new relationships at the last minute and build up the strength of relationships from the past. it just feels like too much to do; especially when mixed in with random craft projects i have to finish for people before i leave.
i realized recently just how many people have helped me become this gloriously perfect person i am today. although i have spent my past year or so in goshen, and met some amazing people (some of whom i even love dearly), it is my time at manchester i keep the closest to me. i've heard people talk about their time at college, and i cry a little on the inside when the memories aren't perfection. the people i met at manchester... the ones who made it all worth it... i don't fully know how to explain what they mean to me. it is with them i found myself. it was in that place which sometimes challenged me beyond belief on physical, educational, and emotional levels where maggie became maggie. it could have happened anywhere, but not with that kind of help. it was no doubt a battle, but the memories make it all worth it. i've said that phrase too many times. maybe just twice. but now, when people ask me why i'm still so connected to that place, i wish i could sit them down and explain the experiences i had... describe the people i met... share those memories.
in my next 16 days, i hope to see as many people from my time at manchester a possible. this weekend i'm heading there for a birthday party, and next weekend again for my own birthday. i hope to take lots of pictures and just soak it all in. i know that in my work this next year, i may be able to visit manchester at least once. it will certainly feel different.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Sunday, September 9, 2007
exciting.
i'm aware these two events don't quite match... different person, different lyrics. but it was a good weekend just the same.
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